this time last year

Well as i was driving to work i was thinking about how everything has changed since this day last year....
day after tomorrow is the day Matthew died last year, the day my whole world got turned upside down. =( the worst day of my life... looking back it seems like yesterday. but its been a year! i feel on the verge of tears today. thinking about how my little Matt was perfect on this day last year. and how we did not have the slightest clue that he would be gone in a matter of days.
i remember that day like it was yesterday, we had went to meet Renee half way to get delayna and bob the builder (cat) . Matt didn't go to school because he loved that cat so much and missed him like crazy. Matthew was so hyper on the trip to get them, he would not stop talking. when we met Renee he refused to get out to see Sydney (Renee's daughter who is Matt's age) . Delayna told him that Sydney had a another bf and he got all mad lol .
we stopped in Thoreau on the way home at Family Dollar and got some snacks and drinks. as we were leaving the store my mom started to back up with out Matthew in the car ... she said "i cant leave my pride and joy, i don't know what id do with out him. or any of you". thinking about this breaks my heart cause not even 7 hours he would be gone :'( .
when we got into Bluewater we got bubba out of school so we could be together when we let bob out of his kennel.
when we got home we played with bob and then i made Matthew and bubba a grill cheese sandwich and ate with them. my grandpa came over and told bubba to go bring the horses in for him. Matthew went with him, because he always did . our horses are gentle and all you have to do is take a bucked of feed to the field and they will just follow you in . Matthew always had too much trust in horses. when we told him they could hurt him he would say , " but they wuvv me?!" .
my grandpa told me to go shut off the water and Matt and bubba still had not come back. when i went out there i had a feeling to go look but i just figured bubba was just taking his time as usual. so i went back inside and my om asked if i had seen them but i said no and looked out the kitchen window but still didn't see them. so i went and layed on my bed.
next thing i know i heard bubba yelling in the kitchen about Matt being half dead and something about blood and him being out in the pit.... so i threw on my shoes and took off running outside . but my grandpa stopped me and  told me he was in the living room... so i went in there and called 911 and they came and got him and threw him to UNM Hospital in Albuquerque . i drove my mom there and was there when they let him go. i kissed him as he flat lined..... it was all happening so fast and i didn't know what to do... i felt numb. i just wanted to go home.
my mom stayed in alb til they brought him back the next day. but i went home that night. my friend was supposed to meet me there but instead another friend came and stayed with til she thought i was asleep. i didn't sleep at all tho... the next morning i got up and had to show the sheriffs where he had got kicked by the horse...
its so crazy to think that all this happened . i have never actually wrote it down. (or typed in this case)