forever

i feel like its been forever since i posted a long blog...
well wednesday is my little brothers "heaven day" (the day he died) it will be one year... brittny is going with me to grants tho!!!! im excited.. its going to be hard tho.
and more on the jake break up... he basically told me that he only sees me as a friend. so his loss i guess. i do miss him tho.
and i got a gym membership. my first workout was today. basically just power walked. but its better than nohing. my legs are kinda sore tho. i think that tomorrow im not going to the gym cuz i need to go to the dupm and clean out the bed of my truck. so i have to drive to cedar hill. lol then tuesday i have a meeting with a trainer at 1. kinda nervous about that.
oh and i made a eHarmony account. i want to meet someone who has the same goals as me..