well , idk where to start?? so there is this guy , names Dakotah McBride , i started dating him on Jan 6 , 2008. i was 17. i never met him . its not like i met him on some creepy site on the Internet. i was trying to remember my bf at the times number (i was grounded so i didn't have my phone)... but i got one number wrong and text dakotah. i got all mad at him thinking Kenny (bf at the time) was just being a dick and acting like someone else. but instead dakotah came into my life.
at first i didn't really pay attention to him, he was only 16. and when i was 17 that seemed sooo young lol . it wasn't until around a couple weeks after Christmas that i really got into him . we hit it off , he was sweet and a cowboy, rode bulls. he was my type of guy to the T. on Jan 6th we started dating , we had all these cute little things, like when we were discussing if we were dating or not, i asked him what page he was on and he said page 12. i asked him if i should be on that page as well, and he said yes. and 12 became "our" number. and we would talk on the phone til 3am and be at school by 730am . We were in love .
but things didn't stay sweet , i just seemed to have this knack for pissing him off . i didn't do it on purpose, he was just a jerk . and everything made him mad . we broke up and got back together ALOT. he would break my heart, i would always take him back . and because of this (and the fact that iv never met him) , my family and friends hate him . and he hates my family. but i love him!
well, anyways , we have been broken up for a long time now. prob the longest ever. and on Thursday night he told me he missed me and wants to give us a try again . and now he lives in farmington. so i said yes . i really do love him . I'm happy and i really hope it can work , i do have this doubt in my brain that its just going to be the same but he is acting way different. he is "needy" and not in a bad way. he has always been the type of guy who don't seem to care about feelings or anything . but for this whole weekend i was his gf , but i distanced myself, i didn't put any effort into us. i was scared. i didn't wanna try cause i always get hurt. but he got upset and said he was serious and want to really try. and now that he lives here he thinks it could work. and i want it to more than anything.
i told my mom i was talking to him again and she said if i started liking him again she was going to give me a lobotomy.... lol she is so funny.
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